i have what it seems like an eternity to write this, but in reality im sitting here watching each minute pass... telling me that in another few minutes it will be time for work. Another day, punching the clock, playing hit or miss with each person that comes into contact with me and praying that i dont screw up. Just another day. Sad really. I remember a time when each day was a new mystery... instead of this boring routine that i am living now. Although i do love this new lifestyle..i am missing my old one terribly.

These past couple months have been a rollarcoaster. Filled to the brink with drama, and emotion. Never in my life have a ever experianced such a wide arrangments of colors, colors living under one place that were so different from each other yet so similar. So clashing!!! Living in my mom's house we were all the same color but just different enough to make us unique, but omg in this house...some people are complete opposites. ive come to realize that im a yellow. Yellow is definatly NOT my favorite color...but when i think of happiness I think of sunshine..which takes me to yellow. So when I am in my yellow-im happy (and this isnt some kinda weird thing that i came up with...so shut up) I have also found calming things to replace the unhealthy ones i was using before. Im trying to save myself. Point blank.

I am blessed to have some of the people in my life that i do right now. I might not see them all as much as i would like to but honestly i can feel their love and support behind me every step of the way.

i am also blessed to have this job @ bruggars, and to be working with some amazing people. without this job i dont know where i would be right now. i honestly dont.

i will probably write more later...but as i said before...time is short and i have to get to work

message to my world:

although there is all this chaos right now, somehow ive made it through... somehow im okay- im okay. And when the tornado finally dies I will be able to say that i survived.

thank you all for listening...

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xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

sammi lynn <3